Things at work have progressed
accordingly, in ways that a "job" would. What does this mean? It means I'm feeling more relaxed…content
with my role there. I'm more confident
in my abilities although I'm still far from error-free. The excitement has subsided some; a touch of tedium
and monotony has inevitably set in, but it isn't nearing unendurable by any
means. It is laborious though. I did come
during the busiest time of year for them!
In roughly 3 months I've even come to that point where I wonder if this
daily drudge has chipped away at my soul a little…or is it just me adjusting to
the normal grind after a 3-year hiatus?
I'm not sure, but in a way I'm hoping it's the former, because in a way I
feel like I need more challenges in my life in order to grow into the person I want
to be. I feel like I'm constantly trying
to prove myself to "me" and suffering and surviving through "hard
times" feels like a triumph somehow. I dunno, I'm kind of in my head right now.
Things at work have progressed uncommonly in ways that a "job" never has for me before. What does this mean? It means I'm feeling happy despite the
minimum wages, minimum conditions and minimum authority. This is purely because of the people I work
with. They are all extreme characters
with diverse histories who've all accepted me into their little family. In roughly 3 months I've even come to the
point where I feel like working there has been enough just because I've gotten
a chance to know all of them. I've
never felt closer to a group of coworkers in such completeness before. I think, in a way I've just missed the
normalcy of people being people around me, since my 3-year
hiatus. The excitement has increased
some; a touch of interest and openness has inevitably sparked, and I hope these
people remain in my sights for years to come. I'm not sure, but I feel as if these people,
strategically placed in my life, are all helping me grow into the person I want
to be. I'm constantly trying to prove myself
to them, and meeting certain aspects of their expectations feels like a triumph
somehow. But I dunno…I’m kind of in my
head right now.
