Work is on my mind...

Things at work have progressed accordingly, in ways that a "job" would.  What does this mean?  It means I'm feeling more relaxed…content with my role there.  I'm more confident in my abilities although I'm still far from error-free.  The excitement has subsided some; a touch of tedium and monotony has inevitably set in, but it isn't nearing unendurable by any means.  It is laborious though.  I did come during the busiest time of year for them!  In roughly 3 months I've even come to that point where I wonder if this daily drudge has chipped away at my soul a little…or is it just me adjusting to the normal grind after a 3-year hiatus?  I'm not sure, but in a way I'm hoping it's the former, because in a way I feel like I need more challenges in my life in order to grow into the person I want to be.  I feel like I'm constantly trying to prove myself to "me" and suffering and surviving through "hard times" feels like a triumph somehow.  I dunno, I'm kind of in my head right now.

Things at work have progressed uncommonly in ways that a "job" never has for me before.  What does this mean?  It means I'm feeling happy despite the minimum wages, minimum conditions and minimum authority.  This is purely because of the people I work with.  They are all extreme characters with diverse histories who've all accepted me into their little family.  In roughly 3 months I've even come to the point where I feel like working there has been enough just because I've gotten a chance to know all of them.   I've never felt closer to a group of coworkers in such completeness before.  I think, in a way I've just missed the normalcy of people being people around me, since my 3-year hiatus.  The excitement has increased some; a touch of interest and openness has inevitably sparked, and I hope these people remain in my sights for years to come.  I'm not sure, but I feel as if these people, strategically placed in my life, are all helping me grow into the person I want to be.  I'm constantly trying to prove myself to them, and meeting certain aspects of their expectations feels like a triumph somehow.  But I dunno…I’m kind of in my head right now.